Abby Captures

It’s been a while since I last wrote here. Over time, life has changed in small but important ways. Now that it’s spring break, I’ve finished the first half of my second term in the Accounting program. This feels like a short but meaningful pause in my journey—a moment that is both an ending and a beginning, and a quiet milestone in a season of change.

Looking back over the past year, moving to BC has been one of the biggest changes I have ever made. The experience brought both hope and uncertainty. Sometimes I felt excited and ready for a fresh start, but there were also moments when old issues resurfaced, reminding me that healing does not always happen in a straight line. Being in a new place has done more than just change my surroundings; it has made me think more deeply about myself. Being away from my usual routines has given me time to notice parts of my life I used to ignore. Some of these thoughts have been tough, but they have also been important. I am learning that healing takes patience, honesty, and the courage to face things I once found easier to avoid.

Even with these challenges, one thing has stayed the same: I have felt God’s presence in my life. Even when I doubted or felt unsure, I noticed His faithfulness in ways I could not ignore. There were small reminders, like feeling calm in the middle of chaos, getting encouragement when I needed it, and finding the strength to keep going even when I was unsure about the future. God has been my steady foundation during this time. When everything else felt uncertain, He stayed the same. Looking back, I see that many of the steps that brought me here were not just my own choices. They were guided and supported by His grace, even if I am still learning how.

There was a time when my life looked very different to others. It seemed stable and settled. I had a career, could travel, and enjoyed many things people often see as signs of success. From the outside, it probably looked like I had everything figured out.

But inside, things felt more complicated.

Although my life looked complete from the outside, I often felt pressured and disconnected. The path I chose was safe and respected, but it didn’t really fit who I was becoming. Sometimes I felt lost and empty, even though it seemed I had it all. Over time, I saw that achievements alone couldn’t answer my deeper questions about purpose and fulfillment. That understanding led me to make one of the hardest choices of my life: to leave what I knew and begin again. Going to school was not merely an academic decision; it reflected a deeper intention to rebuild and redefine the direction of my life. This choice involved embracing uncertainty, relinquishing former sources of validation, and beginning from a place that demanded humility and patience.

My life now is very different from before. I’m getting used to a new city, a different pace, and I’m taking smaller, more thoughtful steps toward the future. Even though this time is quieter and less impressive on the surface, I feel steadier inside.

Lately, I feel calmer than I have in years. My emotions are steadier, and I take time to reflect instead of rushing through life. I’m learning to trust that growth takes time, even when it feels slow. Most of all, I feel more in tune with my values, my goals, and the direction God is leading me.

This season has taught me that true stability doesn’t necessarily come from this time in my life, and that real stability doesn’t always come from what’s happening around me. It isn’t about achievements, titles, or looking like I have it all together. True stability often starts inside, through faith, perspective, and being willing to trust where life is going. It involves surrendering my plans and allowing God’s guidance to determine my direction.

On the outside, this time in my life might look fragile or uncertain. But inside, I feel something much stronger growing. Slowly, I’m finding a new kind of stability—not based on how things look or what I expect, but on faith, growth, and patiently rebuilding.

Perhaps this is the most meaningful foundation one can possess.